I'm going
through
a tough patch
right now
and
maybe
...someday...
I can blog
about it
but
right now
...I just can't...
My brother
sent
...encouraging me...
to
keep moving forward
Friday, February 26, 2016
Thursday, February 25, 2016
#55/366--Perfect Timing
A coworker
brought
coffee to me
this morning
to say that
my life
has been
overwhelming
lately
is
an understatement
and
her surprise
...brought me to tears...
#51/366--Sing Song
Lauren
invited us
to
come see
Sing Song
which is
an acapella
competition between
the social groups
on campus
at ACU
#48/366--Late Mail
Lauren
sent
Michael
a Valentine
Care-Package
from college
to home
...with a little something for me...
<3
#43/366--Party Day
Valentine's Day
was on a Sunday
this year
so
our party
happened
on
Friday
the 12th
Wednesday, February 10, 2016
#41/366--Must Have
It didn't matter
that the line
was
wrapped around
and
that I was
15 cars back
I knew I was in for
...a long day...
so
I waited it out
Tuesday, February 9, 2016
#40/366--Every Detail
Nine years ago
I'm sitting on my bed
reading my Bible
...I was in Psalms...
for February 9
...reading:
Psalm 9, 39, 69, 99, 129
when
my cell phone rang
it was my mom
(it's not unusual for my mom to call me
at 6:30 in the morning, although she's gotten better
over the years...)
She was broken
...crying...
It's hard for me to
recount
what we said
but
it's all there
in my memory
I can't type it out
even now
without
breaking down
He was gone.
So very unexpectedly.
My daddy.
My hero.
My Encourager.
Anyone who's lost someone
...dear to them...
will tell you
that
it doesn't get easier
You adjust
you make room for the grief
you cope
you deal
There are times
that
I just need to talk to him
and it can't be anyone else
and those moments
hurt
I remember
in the days
and weeks
after it happened
I
just
wanted
the
world
to
stop
I mean.
Wasn't the world
...aware?
My dad wasn't here anymore
I needed a chance
to
catch up
grieve
mourn
cry
lay still
smell his after shave
stare at his pictures
go through old photos
reminisce with my brother
and my mom
I don't know if
I ever have
caught up
from where
this unkind world
dumped me off
on this day
...9 years ago...
and
I don't know if
I ever will
I miss you, Dad.
You would be so proud
of
Lauren and Michael
They are so
beautiful
and
kind
it's like your
...very soul...
is
...a part of them...
I can see you
in their eyes
In all those moments
you spent
building
Star Wars Legos
and
Playing Barbies
you transferred
...something of yourself...
to my kiddos
Your legacy lives on
through them
and
though we miss you
it's that strength
you transferred to us
that helps us
carry on
until
one day
we get to
hug your neck
again.
#39/366--Staples
Co-teacher: Do you have staples for your stapler?
Me: No.
Co-teacher: I'll go get some of mine...
Me: (opens desk drawer and finds...)
#37/366--Shaking Her Head...
Lauren
...shakes her head at me...
because
I like to pretend
that
I'm a hip mom
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