I find it lucky that my birthday comes in July. It makes the new year a great time to reassess my goals and take a look at how far I've come on my 50th journey around the sun.
My 50 Before 50 list, accomplishments checked off:
I find it lucky that my birthday comes in July. It makes the new year a great time to reassess my goals and take a look at how far I've come on my 50th journey around the sun.
My 50 Before 50 list, accomplishments checked off:
Halfway to 50
25 or 49 and one half
Six months
And #50before50
is moving along
It’s been a year of
Unmotivated laziness
Anxiety about moving forward
Fear
Doubt
Uncertainty
Insecurity
Distracted by
Social Media
News
Covid
Political arguments
Netflix
Lesson planning
Kindergarten in a pandemic
A growing to-do list that gets longer and longer
causing anxiety
Cycling back and forth
To immobility
And here. I press forward
Day by day
Moment by moment
Finding joy in small things
Getting by the best that I can
Parenting in unknown territory
Grown kids living under the same roof
Wanting them to spread their wings
Knowing times are hard and wanting them to stay little
Conflicting emotions of
Needing them to move
and
Wanting them to stay
Wanting to protect and mother them
Needing to let them
Figure things out on their own
Knowing they are experiencing
2020
In their own ways
And also living one day, one moment
At a time
Teaching in an
“Unprecedented Time”
Desk shields
Face masks
Hand sanitizer
Social distancing
Technology, desperately needed and consistently unreliable
Perpetual changes
Quarantine
Virtual, in-person, hybrid
Nothing is how it should be
Unstable, uncertain, unsettled
ambiguous
And also
Unquestionably, unmistakably, unequivocally
nowhere else I would rather be
“Living the Dream”
Love
at this age
Nearing retirement
Doubting I’ll be able to
When the time comes
Wrestling with
Needing my space and not wanting to be alone
Frustration fighting against contentment
Complacency Struggling with dissatisfaction
Thankfulness twisted together with disappointment
Peace cohabitating with agitation
Side by side
Each of us
Needing, depending on, wanting, loving
each other
also eager for
Solitude, breathing room
This is 50.
Or. Almost 50.
This is halfway there.
25 down
25 to go
49.5
6 months
2020 over
2021 on the way
It’s these little things
The minor goals
Lists of things to do
That bring me small pleasures
Moments of accomplishment
Personal satisfaction
Keeps my mind
My thinking
My contemplation
Positive-leaning
And on the days
That I feel
Adverse
Conflicting
Noxious
Emotions
I can look at my
#50before50 List
And feel a sort of
Grounding
Security
Something to look forward to
Hope for
Halfway there